Dreams

Sometimes I wake up from a long nights' rest and get back to the reality of life. From the fantasy world with Harry Potter with purple and green globs of aliens, to the senses felt from a hug or the capturing of a painting through the eyes of the dreaming.

Now a lot of people say that they do not remember their dreams and that the last time they remembered a dream was when something so insignificant happened that they just brushed it off.
But my dreams feel very different to me. Some nights, I can have more then one dream. For instance last night, with one dreaming about fighting in a boxing match to then move onto Harry Potter playing a game with caves and trolls and wild adventures.

From the beginning to the end, dreams are never the same. Sure you can try to replay a dream in your head again and again but when the subconscious takes over, there is no control of the imagination.

And to then remember the dream like it had just played out in your head will never be the same. Try this: the next time you had a dream that you can remember from beginning to end, try telling someone that dream. The implications of describing the smells and colours and the exuberant amount of detail would bore the person to death. There is never a moment when you could describe your dream as detailed as how your mind had it played out. Very disappointing. Whenever I try and explain my dreams, it always turns out that the other person trying to picture what was going on and trying to follow all that I am saying at rapid speed gets a look on their face as if they were meeting someone from the mental ward saying that I saw flying pigs. ( That might be much easier to explain)

But the worst of all, is when you are enjoying a lovely piece of imagination and you wait up Just before the ending. Or telling yourself that you Will remember this dream because it was a very good one to try and tell people. Where the Really cute guy was going to confess his undying love for you or when the cashier at the gas station tells you how much money you just won. So for now I tell you all, to dream on and dream big because whatever life throws at you, cannot hurt you if it is only in your dreams!

New York Fries

So I decided that I should finish my Christmas shopping on Saturday. but to my surprise there was what it seemed like the entire town of Abbotsford, at the mall! The line ups in every store seemed crazy and whenever you asked someone for a different size or make for a particular item... it was the same answer every time..." Whatever is on the shelf is whatever we have left."

Now most years, I am not like this. I have my shopping finished weeks ago. And my hair isn't being ripped from my head from all the stress levels rising. But due to the change in lifestyle and in my daily routine, there was no way that I could escape the horrifying prison called the mall.

While there, there where many people that I knew. From work, from high school and from sports. So it was impossible to walk around without having to take a moment to chat and catch up with the people that you see and know.

Half past 12 came and I could feel my stomach aching for something to eat, so giving into this I took a moment to go to the food court. What bad timing that was, with everyone else thinking the same thing, I grabbed my food asap and headed for the tables to enjoy my meal. With very little seating left I had to take a table that originally was meant for 6 people. So there I sat, like a loner in the middle of a very busy mall, with people that I knew in very which way.

But that was when the fun really began. Sitting there minding my own business I was politely asked by an older gentleman if there was room for one more at my table. now knowing that it was very busy and seeing that he just wanted a spot to eat, I responded back "yes there was." But in the back of my mind I was very hesitant about the situation due to the fact that I am a female and not normally comfortable about sitting or being around strangers.

So sitting there trying to figure out what was left on my Christmas list, forgetting my pen and paper, I tried to resort to the handy "task" application on my cellphone.But he noticed I was having some trouble and asked if I would like a pen. Which was exactly what I was wishing for at that moment. Then searching for a paper, he very nicely said, " I do not have a piece of paper but you may use my receipt from my fries. All $4.51 worth." And by the way, that pen was very nice. Wrote like an baby.

That broke the ice. Ha! Normally that is used in a romantic way, but I had a very pleasant conversation. We talked about how busy the mall was, and he asked about what I was doing now that I was out of high school. Which he thought I was in high school. And he said that it was good that I was making an honest living. Which I guess I need to take into account. And how his son was coming for him.

And as soon as it had started, it ended as quickly as it started. Wishing each other " a Merry Christmas" and good luck in future endeavors we continued on our separate paths. But it helped me take the whole situation of the business and just enjoy where I was and what I was doing.

My Significant Other

Sometimes I ponder about the little things. Like what would happen if I had a sister or if I was the youngest. Or what would it be like if I only had one parent or lived in the North Pole. What life would be like then.

And there are times when I wonder if I am at this place for a specific reason. That for all the reasons that I am angry because the traffic was bad or that I had to run back inside for a book or something small that makes what happen happen for a reason. That if I hadn't gone inside to get that book, that I would have gotten in a terrible accident and would have been in the hospital.

Then I think about how if the things that happened to me didn't, then my entire life experience would have been different and I wouldn't be the "too" nice person that apparently I am. That if I would have still been in contact with my friends of grade 8, that I would have been into other things, and not had the great high school experience that I ended up having because my priorities would have changed.

Or how if it weren't for that one night where there was no way for the Blahut's family to come pick Jocelynn up on time, that our Amazing friendship wouldn't have started. When we didn't even know it back then, but how that was the beginning of the greatest friendship in the world. I remember it like it was yesterday.... after some soccer event we were waiting for Jocelynn's parents to come pick her up but then something happened that caused them not to be able to pick her up until way after midnight. So my parents suggested that she could stay the night. When this usually happens, I get a little angry at my parents because I feel awkward not knowing this person and having to entertain someone for a long time without even knowing someone. And who knows, I might have been like that for this incident but all in all she slept over. And the entire night we did not stop talking. Talking to all hours of the night about who we were and what types of things interest us. And from then on we have always been friends. And with every year that passes, we get closer and closer. A year ago, while playing soccer together, we were always paired up together for many reasons. We both have the same running style and technique. We both have the same type of mentality to work hard and the drive to work hard. And we know how to finish each others' thoughts.

When it came time to end our youth soccer careers, we joined the Under 21 womens soccer team. There we started fresh. With a new team, new players and two new coach's who did not know who we were. Ever since then we have been put together for almost 100% of the time for anything. The coaches call us the twins because we always do everything together. We are partners in crime for all the drills and when the coachs talk to us... we still finish each others sentences. When there is a chance to try and get us on opposite teams, they as hard as they can... saying " Ok, pick a partner, now one partner is on one team and the other on the opposite team." Anything to try and separate us. But when we are together, it is like everything clicks.

On the pitch at an actual game, we know where each other are. When I have the ball and I want to pass, all I need is to hear Jocelynns' voice. Which I can pick out of a crowd of a million if I ever had to. I just need to hear approximately where she is and I know she will be there to get it, somehow. And when I play beside her, I don't need to worry about my back because I know she has it covered. That if I mess up, which happens often enough, that she will be there to save me. We also come up with some crazy stuff. We have this one move "Goofy". Which if one of us calls out, then we have our little play between the two of us.

So to my best friend in the entire world, I am So thankful that 10 years ago or so, that God had our paths crossed. You have been the best friend I could ever have and I know that you will always have my back! I love you and I look forward to every time that we hang out, go for coffee and talk. Or plan our next big trip or hang out! Thank you for blessing me with your presence and your friendship! To many more great years of that!

Oh For the Love of Shopping and Wrapping!

When it all comes down to it... Christmas is full of joy and love. Showing your friends and family that you care for them through your heart warming thoughts and gifts ( oof course). But even though the true meaning of Christmas is known by all ( and if you don't then it can easily be found), it is so fun to be able to spend time getting gifts for others... With Someone else's money! Muah hahaha.

To the poor soul (which I will not name names) that allowed me to tag along in their adventure in getting Christmas presents. And I am so glad that I got to help someone else buy gifts without spending more then $5... that was for the fast food energy boost.


Started with an msn conversation about how the Christmas shopping still had to be done. Then that led to making a list and checking it twice... before we hit the chaos. Scrabbling in and out through all the people was like trying to jam a puzzle piece into the wrong spot. Then there was the running into people that you know and Having to say "hi". There is no possible way of getting out of something like that, even if there is Major shopping to be done.

Heading from this shop to the next we soon realized that most of the shopping was over in a flash. (How sad that was). That there was no more room for the odd picture frame and how that had to be picked up on a later date.

So with the end of the shopping portion of today's show, we decided that a good Pick-me-Up would be necessary to celebrate the successes of the day. So McDonald's it was. With our gifts in the back seat and the McDonalds in the cup holders and at hand. We headed home... well not to my home but his.

There we delighted in our findings and eating our banquetting dinner, while enjoying the interactive game of Rockband and Guitar Hero. With very little success and way too much effort my brain fried and it was on to the next great thing. A play, midget women aka "Little Women." What a lovely choice for the evenings final activity.

Then back for some fancy christmas wrapping of flowers, guitars and beer bottles ( don't ask) while enjoying seeing the cute baby pictures of the family and conversing in more Rock Band.

So to this annoymous person, thank you for the awesome day and I would love to know how everything turns out!

I can Truely say that when shopping with a male counterpart, there is no room for the odd store that did not have anything you were looking for. Short and sweet, get in get out. Like the In and Out Burger Stores down in the United States.

I Wish I Were a Dinosaur!

So there was a commercial on the t.v the other day about a dinosaur that kids can ride like a pony. Big enough for the toddlers and cool enough for the babies. So I was thinking. How cool would that be to have a dinosaur for myself. And seeing as my parents would not allow me to get a puppy... a dinosaur would be the next closest thing! So I finally decided that I would have to do some research on this amazing idea of mine.

To my surprise.... that dinosaur would cost about as much as a puppy. How silly. Even though I would not have to feed or clean up after the dino it still would have to get its' batteries replaced every now and then.

After all the deliberations, I gave up on my wishful thinking, and went on to want a puppy. Or maybe a car. It is a good thing that I have a job right? Well then the next day at work, while serving a customer, along came a dinosaur! It was AWESOME! I wish I got a picture. A living, breathing dino. And I didn't need the $300 to see it neither.

Unfortunately, I was not able to take this dinosaur home. It was a halloween costume for a little boy. Even though it was 2 months past its' time, the mom told me, " He insisted that he wore it here," and that he has been wearing it for a while now. It was so cute and exactly what I needed to cheer up my dinosaur blues. Now if only I could have a the moon!

Time

With this last year, so much has happened that it would take a book to explain all that has happened. Through tragedy and happiness, to love and hatred. My life has been a super roller coaster in which it has no pit stop to catch your breath. But even though it feels like my world has been inside the spinning wheel of death, there has been things that have become important to me. Friends and having a regular catch up time for everything. Knowing what is going on in everyone's lives and the latest happening at university or even in Manitoba (Beebe).

How Soccer will always and forever be a huge part of my life. Even if I can no longer play that there is a shear pleasure in teaching and seeing some results from the little things that can be accomplished. And that there is a long ways from being cold and extremely cold for being in a t-shirt and shorts.

That life is short. There is no telling when the clock of time will just stop ticking. There is no way of knowing or preparing for the worst or the best things in life. That with every day, every situation that comes your way, it happened for a reason. That it will help shape you and mold you to be the person that is deep down inside. Whether it makes you cry at the site of many old memories or burst out laughing at the sight of a car with one burnt out head light.